Sunday, October 26, 2008

What the ?

I'm climbing out of the quicksand and someone throws me a boulder.

I don't understand. Is there a lesson that I am supposed to be learning that I'm not getting? What is so special about me that I need to be challenged constantly?

On Thur my Dad was diagnosed with cancer. I'm not sure of the primary site. He had a lump on his neck/shoulder, had it looked at, a large mass in his right upper lobe was found on x-ray. After having a PET scan the thoracic surgeon apparently told him there was cancer throughout his body. Not a lot of options. He has decided to seek treatment at "The Cancer Treatment Centers of America" in Chicago. He's 67 and healthy as a horse, Ha! Seriously he runs 3 miles with a 50lb pack on, is in Karate, rollerblades, bike rides a min of 5 miles per day. He is a certified forest firefighter with the National Park Service. I don't get it.

I don't get it. Maybe that's just it. Maybe there is no "getting it". Maybe there is no rhyme or reason to life. Maybe you should just live because it's all you really have.

On a side note....Thankfully God threw me a bone with getting the perfect place on Wed. My spirits were lifted.
Oh man.

I'm thankful for so many things though. My life is good. I have a supportive family. The most wonderful husband and daughter, a great little pooch. A gorgeous new place to move into, we'll see the sunrise every morning from our bed, a great little jeep. I have very few things to move, just our personal items. No furniture!

I'm going to be moving closer to someone very special to me.

So here's to looking up!


Kim said...

Oh Tina,
I'm so incredibly sorry to hear about your Dad's diagnosis. Life sure has a way of challenging you when you least need it sometimes. I'll keep him in my thoughts and hope that the center in Chicago can offer him some good treatments. Again, I'm so sorry to hear this news. xo, Kim

Lisa said...

I am sorry to hear about your dad. You have so much on your plate. Hang in there!!