Wednesday, July 19, 2017

One Strange Trip

so here I am once again....Now it's July of 2017.

I'm remarried. No longer a widow. I honestly don't know what the hell I am doing.
I forgot about this blog....for years I wrote in paper journals....last summer I stopped. I'm not sure why...

Where do I jump in, do I try to pick up where I left off? I can't. Too much time, too many hard memories, too much pain. Reminding me of what I had, what I lost, what i tried to find again.....but didn't.

Does that sound harsh? It's not meant to. It is reality.

I'm married. I married a man that I truly love. I believe he loves me. I have to believe it because he doesn't show it, at least not in the ways I would recognize.
Shawn's sister introduced us.

I feel like I could just walk away.