Tonight I designed my "Simply Seaglass" blog. It's in it's infancy, a prototype really so please be patient with me. Here is the link
I am totally chickenshit but I am determined to overcome this. Wahh wahhh!
I have spent an entire lifetime being afraid to do things, afraid to put myself out there because I'm afraid of not being good enough. I'm petrified of being looked down on, ridiculed, embarassed.
Who the hell knows where this shit comes from and frankly I'm amazed I'm even posting about this but I don't care. I am who I am.
I can do anything, amazing, miraculous, wonderful things for others but not for myself.
I became an expert on all things natural for my daughter, I became a nurse for my husband, and here I am. What am I for myself ?
I want to create, I want to take yoga, I want to make soap, I want to go skiing and camping and hiking and bike riding,...my ridiculous fears stop me, I'll look too fat, I don't have the right clothes, I won't follow through, I might fall, I might be no good and on and on and on.
So tonight I am sitting typing and making a promise to myself, just to me. I promise to stop living in fear.
I want to be brave, I want to live fully, I want to be fearless!
Rest in Peace Aunt Marybeth
1 year ago